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我不要

现在是27号凌晨2点
明天就要和朋友去Tioman
然后30号傍晚回来 1号就要上KL准备好2号要开学了
也就是说今天是我再次回去KL之前，和家人最后一天的相聚。
我哪里都不想去 虽然整个假期其实也都在家

好想每天在熟悉的地方起床
每天看到爸妈 每天和他们吃晚餐
我还是不能接受这些简单的生活，在我来不及道别的时候我就失去了。
以前读书在家，在家吃饭在家睡觉每天看到爸妈，是多么习以为常的事。
那时怎么会想到，这种生活原来会结束。
我都来不及适应，已经一个人在KL生活。怎么说起来特可怜似的。

呆在家10个月 又要回去了
又要到陌生的地方 又要到没有他们的地方。
10个月，以后，还有机会能呆在家那么长时间吗。

我连收拾都不想收拾 就是想能拖一天就拖一天
我不想那么快进入收拾东西 离开家里的心情，糟透了，真的糟透了。

这个离家的心情 并没有因为重复了很多次而习惯
还是会怕得流泪发抖 还是很无助
还是很希望有人能跟我说 就呆在家里吧别去了。

只想做个窝囊。
无助。


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